I was pondering something in my head and decided to ask someone other than myself... Does one little sentence really matter that much? Can it change your life forever? Change everything you ever thought was possible, what was right? When you’re teetering on the brink of destruction, can one phrase really make you or break you as they say? Which of the many infinite possibilities of lines that could be said or even read are the ones that can do this? And who would have the courage to do so, all the while knowing that it could change someone forever? Can you answer me? Anyone? Or at least ponder it yourself...make me feel a little less like a lunatic? About a month ago I was given one phrase that has definitely changed my ENTIRE life. “You need help, Madi…and you are going to Fairfax.” I never expected that one phrase would ever have such an affect on me. But here’s how I have changed: I now have a phobia of cameras (like video cameras in banks and stores and stuff…not picture taking ones) and frosted windows. I also absolutely hate fog (because you can’t see things through the window…or at least not clearly…). I have a new pair of pants from a girl who was there. I officially don’t care whether or not I do my hair or make-up (even though I still do it). I am probably mentally and emotionally scarred for life and am probably worse off than I was to start with. I no longer own a razor blade. I no longer have texting…or for that matter, a phone. I have way less freedoms and my mom wont let me hang with my only best friends, Emily, Amanda, and Alyssa because they might be a bad influence on me, because I’m fragile (AAAHHHHHH!!!!!). And I have met the most amazing person ever and I may be falling in love with him. Exept for the last part...I kinda want to say: "SOMEONE SHOOT ME!".

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ok I'll be done now... :/

heyyyyyyyyyyy ;)

So I am incredibly boooorrrrreeeeddddd I am doing my History essays that are totally due tomorrow but I thought I'd check in... so I met this person who is absolutely AMAZING. Since you just recently let me know that you actually read this site, I wanted to ask you a question... in the last note that I was able to give you... what I told you about how i felt... i know you have Erin on your mind a lot... that's kinda why we met... but I want to be honest with you about what I think about you. But I can't until i know it's... in a way, "safe". So please e-mail me and tell me how you feel about ME first. And I don't want you to spare my "feelings". No prob. Anyways......I have new pics and that's about all I can really say right now... gotta go do my stupid essays... bye byes!

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OK so lots to tell u.... i broke up with jordan i got a new phone i had an awesome choir concert i started going out with Sam :) i had another choir concert i ran away from home i went home again i missed tolo :( i tried to kill myself i was admitted to Fairfax mental hospital i met an amazing guy there and an amazing girl too i discharged i was a wreck i got a puppy and here i am. happy holidays everybody! fill you in on the details later! gotta go Christmas shopping! :) new cell phone!

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Yay! I has a bf again! His name is Jordan but I call him bio. Most people do... :) This, btw, prob. wont last very long... Oh yeah..and I got txting back! Double yay! Oh and I am BIPOLAR. I take meds now. Cross your fingers and lets hope they work!